InsaneJournal

Fuck
So things at work have been sucking. The owner of the clinic I work at is a dick, and has been holding a pissy grudge against me since I stood up for myself. Things have been strained between him and I for a long while now. Then he just up and changes the hours of the clinic without even telling me. Now my numbers at work have sunk to pretty much nothing.
So I was just farting around on kijiji.ca tonight and thought "Heck I wonder if anyone puts up job offers for Massage Therapists?" so I do a search and guess what? Well the owner has posted an ad for a new Massage Therapist, and there is only one room in the clinic. So this obviously means that I'm getting kicked to the curb.

So I just finished updating my resume and I just sent it off to someone who taught me in school and thought I was pretty good.

I'm freaked because, hell, this was my first job in the profession and now I might get canned (assuming I can't jump ship before hand) I'm afraid that the owner is a major dick and I won't be able to trust him for a reference (and I actually pray that my future employer DOESN'T contact him, because I can't see him being professional about it.)

Fortunately, I live with my father who tells me that I don't have to worry about paying rent if money becomes tight.

Fuck! I really love all my clients and I don't want to leave them (I may be able to sneak a couple of them away with me) Plus I know I'm going to start crying when I have to say goodbye to my clients, which I hate.

Fuck!